Now what?
I've got no freaking idea...
I've just signed up to live in Sheffield until May next year with no freaking job, no more studies and nothing left to do. Plus I've exhausted almost all my allowance. Great planning huh?
Sorry to everyone who ever reads this blog (especially Elishia) for not updating anything the last few months. She's been bugging me constantly for this update. But seeing as the purpose of this blog in the first place is to share my thoughts with her, I can just do that face-to-face now since she's here. But nooo...she wants to read it here! I don't know why...
I've been having serious insomnia for the last few days. Seems the only way for me to go to bed before 5am is by drinking lots of liquor. I think the reason behind this is due to stress. Stress about my future and what I'm gonna do with my life next. Somehow everything I can think of feels depressing or almost impossible.
Option 1: I could be a bum doing nothing for the next 9 months....(Depressing)
Option 2: I could find a proper job, extend my visa and keep living here for the foreseeable future....(Almost impossible)
Option 3: I could find a part-time job to fill out my time....(Most likely but feels depressing all the same)
Perhaps I could screw this freaking country and just go home but then I'll have to start a long and unending routine of working life back in Malaysia....(Super, super depressing).
I think this is what's keeping me up every night. I'm having a freaking post-study crisis. I need to go to freaking Langkawi or Tioman or Redang and spend a month there.
On another note, some people just makes me freaking annoyed. This blog usually is not meant for rants but I'm in the mood for it now. Don't you get annoyed when people try to make it seem as if their lives are very happening all the time and filled with so many important things to do or is it just me? I don't care and don't need to know what you have to do if it is just to satisfy your freaking ego. Even though I've got nothing better to do, I don't need to hear that shit. I'd rather spend it doing the freaking laundry.
Oh, and the freaking council is asking me to pay tax cos I'm no longer a student. Don't they know I'm freaking broke. I can't even afford to bring my girlfriend out to a fancy restaurant for dinner. Luckily for me she loves fattening kebab food. Mucks!
So here's my thought for the last couple of days. Not like you haven't heard it already (in Elishia's case). So I'm writing it out here cos I know you love reading my blog. If this insomnia doesn't stop, there might be many more updates yet.
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